Today I feel so tired,
My brain is wrongly wired.
I can’t get out of bed,
Really bad pains in my body and head.
So i close my eyes and drift away,
To all the nice places I’ll visit one day.
Think of the good times don’t dwell on the bad,
Or you’ll spend the rest of your life feeling incredibly sad.
Don’t dream too big to avoid disappointment,
Learn to enjoy the most small precious moment.
A BBQ with friends or a hug from a child,
It doesn’t have to be outrageous funky and wild.
Just have your rest and then carry on,
Hopefully for awhile your pains will be gone.
Try To Focus on Positive Times
My moods and emotions have been so up and down this year. I get so fustrated at not being able to do what I want to do . This then turns into a downward spiral of feeling like I’m never going to be able to do anything again. Yes if you compare to what I was before I got sick I’m doing hardly anything but you can’t compare , you are at the start of a new journey.
Since January I’ve been going to the gym. Prior to this I’d been on such heavy medication ( 60mg oxycontin twice a day) yet still in pain but mentally dealing with it sat a in chair .
I couldn’t live like this so I asked for an alternative. I got told if i came off oxycontin I could have Nabilone a prescribed cannabinoid. It’s a great drug for me . It helps with my muscle spasms and pain.
This was the start of things changing for me. It’s not been straight forwards . Being more active has caused a few more problems but I’d rather be active with my children than sat in a chair.
This year I’ve been regularly going to the gym. I need support there sometimes just reassurance but my fitness is getting better and the staff are fantastic.
I’ve done 20km on a handcycle as part of a triathlon at Dorney Lake with Team Brit for the Superherotri.
I’ve been on a train journey.
We went to #Bendrigg Trust as a family and had an amazing weekend.
Rode the illuminations.
Went to watch Dirty Dancing and Billyocean.
Would love to watch JonBonJovi
Set yourself goals and work towards them . It doesn’t matter what they are .