I can’t bloody sleep again…..

No it’s not due to my head , i had oxygen just before.

It’s not due to hubby poisoning me due to toxic bottom burps 😪💨💨💨

My arm and shoulder is hurting from my steroid injections this afternoon but I’m used to that so ……

Probably because I have a cold and even though that is what is probably saving me from my husband trying to poison me ,it makes it rather difficult to breath through my ventilator.

I have to wear this ventilator because neurologically there is a break down in my brain telling my lungs to breath somewhere.

I also get throat spasms called vocal cord dysfunction which can often be mistaken for asthma.

It took a long time to diagnose but hey at least we got there in the end ( I say with clenched teeth).

I get breathless on movement so I have been using my vent whilst exercising so I can start getting active again. I love it.

Anyway it isn’t pleasant when you have bubbles of snot coming out of your nose and you feel it bubbling away like it’s a big cauldron. It’s even worse if you sneeze.

I can’t help but somehow think that hubby secretly is poisoning me with his toxic bottom burps. I think it’s pay back from what i did to him years ago……

When breastfeeding our babies in bed i used to get so fed up of sitting there for hours listening to the rhythmic snoring i grew resentful of the fact that I was the only parent with the milk jugs oh and hubby loved commenting on how big they were 😠😡😠😡like i was bothered about that when they were being chewed by a baby for 23 hours a day 🖕. So as I looked at him sleeping with what looked like a smirk on his face , I’d get my other boob out and I’d use his face as target practice 🤣🤣🤣 . I used to give myself marks out of 10 for hitting the mark. 👍

It made my nights go quicker and I felt some satisfaction but I do believe I’m being paid back now. In my defence breast milk is good for you 😁

Please can you share the Facebook support page for parents and families who have disabilities or long term health conditions and are looking for support in please note this is not a toxic fart challenge group #Fleetwood #wyreandfylde please https://www.facebook.com/groups/1556840474401957/

Joanne Quinnell